Funeral Of Heart

Loves the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the sun
Shining upon The tomb of your hopes
and dreams so frail

He was the moon
Painting you With its glow so vulnerable and pale

She was the wind,
carrying in All the troubles and fears
here for years tried to forget

He was the fire, restless and wild
And you were like a moth to that flame

The heretic seal beyond divine
Pray to God whos deaf and blind
The last nights the souls on fire
Three little words and a question why?

p/s: unintended....

"RM " or "HAPPINESS" ?

26/01/2009....

5 hari lagi gua akan berinjak umur...yg nyata perubahan umur gua nanti akan membuatkan gua akan diketegorikan sebagai seorang lelaki dewasa yang pada kebiasaannya ramai lelaki yang sebaya dan seumur gua sudahpun berkahwin ataupun sudahpun merancang untuk menamatkan zaman bujang masing-masing..tapi gua? banyak algi yang belum gua sudahkan...

Pada tika ni...gua sedikit pun tak memikirkan tentang bila kah gua akan menamatkan zaman bujang gua..walaupun gua terasa sedikit bahang desakan daripada beberapa pihak yang menginginkan gua membuat keputusan tentang perkara ini...yang nyata, gua memang masih belum bersedia untuk satu istilah yang dipanggil "Perkahwinan" sebab gua sendiri dapat mengukur kemampuan diri gua...gua tak nak nanti " ku sangka panas hingga ke petang..ruapanya hujan di tengah hari" ..

Gua agak pening sekarang ni...tak tau yang mana satu untuk gua pilih tentang apa yang gua nak buat dalam hidup gua..I LOVE TO BE A LECTURER...I'M SO FUCKING HAPPY WITH THIS JOB..EVERYTIME I SEE MY STUDENT FACES I FEEL A BEUTIFUL FEELING FLOWS INSIDE AND EVERYTIME I SPREAD A WISDOM WORDS TO ALL MY STUDENTS...I FEEL LIKE I AM THE BEST MAN STANDING ON EARTH...BUT SERIOUSLY TALKING, THIS JOB CAN'T MAKE ME RICH....AND SOMETIMES IT EVEN MAKE ME THINK TWICE THAT WORTH IT OR NOT FOR ME TO GO ON WITH THIS JOB BECAUSE THERE'S SOMETHING OUT THERE WHICH CAN GIVE ME MORE THAN JUST HAPPINES...

Baru-baru ni..gua dapat job offer from one of the best bank in Malaysia..Gaji yg dia offer kat gua dua kali ganda daripada apa yang gua dapat skang ni...pening kepala gua..bila gua buat pertimbangan, dua-dua ada kelebihan masing-masing sampai gua sendiri susah untuk buat satu keputusan..bila gua tanya kawan2 gua,diorang cakap quit from my job now and grab that offer...tapi hati gua sendiri tak sure...

Penat siol...serius penat...

Penat fikirkan "more RM but less Happiness" or "More HAPPINESS but less RM"